I am back!! Forgive me, committed and new readers, for not writing in a while. Recovery from surgery was slower than I anticipated though Dr. P reminded me that it may take time for my new medication to tackle the illness that took over my body. Six weeks later, I can tell you that I am gaining energy and mental clarity more each day.
It’s truly remarkable. I wake up at 6:30 each morning now after sleeping seven hours. I enjoy coffee and ponder how I should spend my day. I don’t plan my day around my level of pain and the density of my brain fog. I look forward to the daily stroll in the pasture, watching the dogs run, sniff, and pester Amigo. I stroke Amigo’s nose when he takes a break from this grass and greets me.
Last week, I started substitute teaching again. Last year, I tried to help out in the school where my husband teaches but was too exhausted after one day. While I don’t regret leaving my career as a school counselor for coaching, I do miss interacting with kids. I know many of the students and substituting is a great way to fill my need of teen time. This weekend is prom and one of my spousal duties includes being my husband’s date for the evening. I look forward to going this year and dancing with my date.
I review my Web of Life and consider areas that need addressing and strengthening. I
look at my web differently now. Health takes on a different meaning, for I no longer assess which part of my body requires greatest attention. I also look at personal development with fresh eyes and open mind. I spend more time exploring my spirituality. Joy & fun plans are now made without fear of cancellation due to illness.
I go to bed without fear of tossing and turning. I started writing a gratitude journal and document three things that I am grateful for each day. I indulge in new dreams and strive to shed old burdens.
I know the phantom inside me exists and while it sleeps soundly now, I realize it may awaken again. But I relish each pain-free day and look at life with a new sense of purpose.
Live more joyfully despite chronic illness.
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